"Hey Momma, where should I hide?" "Ummm, I think I will hide in the closet - K momma? Thats where I hide cause it's a good spot."
Some conversation similar to this happens every time we play hide & seek - which has recently become a favorite game. Ryleigh always tells us where she'll be hiding and when it's our turn to hide - she wants us to hide in the same place. I've tried the past few times to explain how talking about our hiding places defeats the purpose of the game - but so far it's been to no avail.
Today, as we had our 483rd conversation about where she was going to hide, I wondered if God ever had those same thoughts about me. If He ever chuckles or smiles to Himself when I try to hide or cover up something...thinking "Nickolee, I already know - there's no point in playing that game".
Now that I think about it, probably not. I'm thinking if He smiles, it's a sad smile...the kind of smile that would mean...
You're smarter than this.
Why are you taking this path...again?
Have you already forgotten what I've taught you?
I'm reminded of John 1 where Jesus tells Nathaniel "I saw you before Phillip ever came to you".
"I saw you before"
Hiding is a waste of time and energy. Covering up my sin is useless.
What a better use of this life...of His gift...of His love.