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It's such a simple word...almost deceiving in the easy way it is to pronounce, to sing, to put in a sentence. A beautiful word with a breathtaking meaning...yet "grace" - TRUE grace...it's hard. difficult. the accepting of it that is...to truly wrap my head around the definition of receiving something I don't deserve. that i haven't worked for. that there is no checklist or prerequisites for. there's no file folder to file it in. my brain isn't wired to fully grasp it. not in my sin state. not in my humanness.
on the other hand it seems easy enough to give to others - they seem more worthy somehow...or maybe it's just because it makes me feel good to give grace. does it always go back to selfish motives? maybe that's why it's hard for me to accept it. to view it as a free gift. isn't there always an ulterior motive rooted down deep? down deep beneath the masks and facades that we walk though this life with? the fear that ultimately He - the Grace Giver - will hold up a mirror showing my true self and how unworthy of it I am?
so i sit with my tear stained face too humbled to even look up to heaven because in the midst of every question, every doubt, every fear...His Grace is there. It's covering up and erasing all of the question marks that seem to wrap themselves around my heart.
His Grace is ENOUGH.
it. is. enough.