Lesser & Greater

For as far back as I can remember, my daddy's favorite verse has been "He must become greater; I must become less." - John 3:30

If anyone lives out that verse, it's my daddy.  He has taught me so much about being who our Savior has asked us to be...an example of Jesus.  My daddy doesn't talk about himself or how he is doing - he is interested in you and what's going on in your life.  He will then be sure to point you to the Father and recognize that whatever is going on (good or bad) that it is all in the Lord's hands.

This past week, the Lord really had me thinking a lot about this verse.  Then, today, as I was at the doctor's office, hearing news that I really didn't want to hear (that we'll be in Joburg a little while longer)...He reminded me of it again.

See, this season...it's not that much fun.  It particulary frustrating to me because when I'm sad or down, I can't quite put my finger on why that is.  The doctor says that it's because it's a biological thing - a chemical imbalance.  It's not a broken arm so you can't see it.  It's not a virus so you can't take your temperature to tell how much better you're doing or the chicken pox to see how close you are to being well.  You just have to know that when you're better - you'll be better.  You just have to accept that it could be a long process.

We're ready to be back in Mada - we miss it.  But you know, it's not about what we want.  It's about Him.  This process is quite humbling to put it lightly...it is serving as an almost daily reminder that it is indeed not about me.  It's not about my plans or my wants - it's about Him...about Him becoming greater.  About me becoming less...being poured out (sometimes quite literally - tears anyone?!?)...being weak.  It's not a situation where I can just "pull myself together"...it's completely out of my control.  I can't keep it in my grasp - I have to just let it go, release control, palms up...

And ultimately - that's just getting me closer to the main goal...

"He must become greater; I must become less" John 3:30